Thursday, June 29
Suddenly, i feel the world turning against meI'm shit scared. I shouldn't have done what I did today. It was a dicission out of sheer pressure. Man, I suck. I have no fucking mind of my own & no matter what happens, i'll never be able to forgive myself.
I believe in karma and just the thought of it makes me wince. I'm just too caught up. I'm not going to do this anymore.
I'm almost there into the stage where I know who my true friends are. At least, that's what i feel. I'm a wreck & if i don't buckle up, sooner or later i'd explode into a gazzilion pieces.
I guess Sorry isn't a strong enough word anymore. Its Overrated and it don't mean what it used to mean. Im not making any sense here so fuck.
I'm just frustrated and i need a help-line. I need to realise my dreams, my goals and how i'm going to go about achieving them.
I'm so messed up right now, it's not even funny. Think i'll stick to where i belong. Doing something else just makes things harder & the feeling sucks. I hope i get over it sooner or later.
I just hope that whatever happened today could self-destruct.
I hope my entire universe would self-destruct.
The battle's begun.The world's turned against me& the only way is to decay.No pun intended.
din
