Friday, August 18
& i feel so much depends on the weather.
so is it raining in your bedroom?
The weeks been pretty much a bore. School's a bitch, really. It's hard t keep the vibe going especially when you've got a healing wound the size of a ginco nut! It's sickly. I'm sickly. I just need my foot t go back to what it was so that I can carry on with my life. Wart-less (:
O Level English Oral on thursday. I would say it went pretty alright although I realised there was loads more i could have said but of course at the moment, a gienormous cloud of anticipation decides t rain over you. But nonetheless, the examiners were really nice. Made them laugh a little and it was more of talking t a friend than an examiner. It's all good.
I guess life's fair. It slaps you in the face with all its negativity until you just ask yourself, what the hell you're doing here. But there's ALWAYS a good side t everything. And it's up t you t decide on whether or not you choose to dig extra hard for the pot of gold. Cause its there alright. & it's just about worth looking for.
Along side with all the horendous stuff, there's beauty. It's pretty obvious. Life's a living hell. But hell's got it's privilages. For all we know, God may be opening up franchises all over hell. So, free yourself from hopelessness, it'll do you good.
cause i've been locked up in your heart-shaped-box for weeksYknow, I'm just glad I have people around me who see me for who I am and not what I seem t be. It's been pretty tough at school lately. My little breakdown on tuesday wasn't because of my foot. It was because I thought nobody cared. I thought I had no body t depend on. Nobody t talk t. But as I said, people are misunderstood & i'm not the only one in need here. I doubted Ann Hin cause I thought she was pissed or sthn. Truth is, I was the bitch. I misinterpreted my own lousy self.
& that's why i bleed just t know i'm alive.
I thrive on making my statements. Making people happy. Most of all, I thrive on absurdity.
Wagged school tday mainly cause I was down with major temperature issues around midnight partly because of my damn operation but I'd choose t believe I'm ill on fatigue. It's like I'm trying so hard to believe in myself, but to no avail.
Prelims are in a few weeks. T be honest, I haven't really gotten down to business. It's just scraps. Like when did all the motivation decide to holiday at Bali. Hello! I'm here. With arms wide open.
I'm petrified. Sometimes, I feel that tuition's taken it's toll on me. I know I'm being an oversized brat imported from Timbuktoo, but I just feel she doesn't care. I know I'm not exactly genius or anything, but I am trying.
So
tulan.So Rockstar Supernova was good again on wednesday. Vegas Baby. Woohooo! Haahah. Zayra's out! My wish came true, at last. She can't sing to save her life.
It was a shocker t see Magni at the bottom three, like WHATT? Just like it was for S'pore Idol. Mathilda, Jon Leong & Hady- bottom three. HOWW? Back to RS. Magni's Creep was awesome. Shrills down my spine. Just the right level of intensity. LOVED IT.
Ryan's In The Air Tonight was DA DOMB! The best performance of the whole night. I would say. Dave Nevarro was so messed up lah. First he said Toby was the best. Then he said Ryan was the best. Then he said Dilana was the best. Like make up your damn mind. Ryan's just awesome. I love that guy. The intensity in his expression is just mesmerising. It's almost like he enthralls you into what he wants you t see. It's beautiful.
& I guess Dilana's got what it takes to front Supernova. Girl Power bodoh. Hahah. But her sound can get a little boring. Well, it's all up to Gilby & gang.
OHH. Toby's Hot.
LOVES HIM ( or his ass ;) )
Hahah. Gots t get backs to my works.
Later, my pretties.
din
