Wednesday, August 30
i think about how, it might have been.
spend our days, travelling.I've made up my mind t make up my mind. There's obviously more t life than dwelling in self-denial and scaring the shit out of people. Emo-fied. & thanks t my cousin, I think I'm at a much better state than I was just moments ago. Sometimes, the only way t pick yourself up is t be harsh. Remind yourself how idiotic you are, then BAM! you're slapped in the face with reality.
Which is an awesome feeling. Whatever happened in the past is meant t remain in the past. I want t be able t live for the day. I don't think I'm exactly 'motivated'. It's such a strong word but I'm just trying really hard t get my sums right, my equations well put, my answers with great meaning. My physics is improving, LOVES IT!
& I'm still struggling t find my love for SS. The key t great success is t love your books man. Totally. Passion makes perfect. Gots to pick up from where I left off.
Today marks the last lessons for the year. After today, I felt so alone. So detachable. Like I had nothing t hold on to. Which totally sucked cause I was all emo during SS cause of it and LeongSF lost my SS test-paper. What luck? Gosh, I'm just so petrified but I dont know why I'm still glowing with affection.
I need t make it right this time. I'm going t miss all the crazy times in class. The Back-Seat Crew with our insanely lame jokes and failed attempts t motivate each other. Laughing our butts off during Mr. K's lessons. Sweet, lollipop memories. The hilarious-ness of AnnHin. The
kiam pa-ness of KangWei and the DUH-ness of JunHao. With full force, I believe we'll be able t make it.
I was just surfing the SAJC website. It's SO COOL. It's my ultimate dream school. I'll get my 13 points - 3. I'll join Debate/Rugby/Drama/Council, work my butt off with super cool people. I'll wear the nicest uniform in town. I'll be living the Singaporean Dream. I want t make it t SA so bad. It's like I've set my mind t it, I haven't even considered Poly. I don't want t enter an Engineering Course. CE would be cool but I'm just not too keen on it anymore. I want a Chemical Degree t work my way up t being a Chemist, then would I only be able t earn a place in the ForensicsDept.
OMG. I can't believe I fantasied it all in one para. This is so unreal. Imagine how I'd feel if I don't achieve it. Like a bullet through my soul.
Back t being Emo.
So Teacher's Day's gonna be quite sore really. ACES Day WO in the early morning, then comes the Concert which is missing an aura. HAHAH - those who know what I'm talking about. Yeah, it's sad. Pretty darn unentertaning. Everyone literally went, 'HUH? WHYYY?' hahahah, it was hilarious, lah.
Oh well. Then I guess I'll feel it when it comes. Teachers were our only source of fun. They made our life miserable, but if not for them, we'd be screwed, honestly speaking. I really wanted t do something special for some teachers but like no time leh. Hmmm. Oh well. Guess I'll really thank them on the outlook of Next Year. Ugh, the feeling of it's horrifying.
But yeah, they've all ROCKED! Especially Mr K, Ms Yew, Mr Bakar, ETC ETC. It's all good (:
So it's The Devil Wears Prada after TDC. So glad loads of people agreed t it. This will be my last movie till after Os. Need t get my priorites straight. StudyDate with Jihan on Friday. Hardcore Studying Baby! Totally. It's got t be done.
Once again, I'd like t thank Noherr for slapping me out of my misery. & to the past, thanks for just, well..being there. I'm just glad it happened.
It's time t move on.
Vroom~
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