Saturday, September 16
It's extremely hard to fathom Samuel's passing. Who had ever thought such a tragic tragedy would occur. My relationship with Samuel was that of an acquaintance. We had one or two conversations and I had heard of him back in Sec 2 from Nicole who spoke nothing but good words of him.
Samuel really was a good guy. So gentlemanly. With intelligence exuding through his soul, he made things seem so easy going. He will be greatly missed though he has inspired us all. I'm sorry for the death of Samuel Tan who passed on. So suddenly. Dreadfully. Heartachingly.
School on friday was a disaster. Everything became so austere once the news had been out in the open. Guess people around me shared grief, confusion and dismay. Some even stressed?
There's this thing within me that assures me that he's in a much brighter, more beautiful place and that we should be happy for him. I am happy for him now that he's in heaven and I rejoice to that. But I grieve for the Family. His Mother looked totally broken inside at the Wake yesterday. How could any mother live day to day with the absence of her son?
Poor Aunt Maurine. I would never be able to understand what she's going through. The pain, the agony, the heartbreak. It just leaves me with a bunch of questions that I know everyone has. Why now? What now? Etc. Etc.
He's so young, just too young. I'd raise the dead if I could. If only I could. Sounds absurd, but I would. Anyone with such a power would. We all would. Who knew what a tiny insect could do to someone. The hardest thing is to handle it all. The situation, the way we feel. But we have to stay strong. We have to believe in everything that lives on.
Now's the most important time in our lives where we reach out to the Lord, with arms wide open. I totally agree to what Aunt Belle said about his passing. Why take away such a good guy? It is in the name of the Lord that Samuel was the chosen one. Yet, his legacy lives on in all our hearts.
The hardest thing at the point in time is to console. It don't mean anything once reality has attacked in full force. The reality of death. The impact. You'd go to school and just assume someone would be there forever. We'd never really thought about it at all.
& there's nothing we can do cause for a fact, life goes on.
But I still want to know why.
And now that the prelims are on, it's ever harder. But Samuel wouldn't want us to do badly, he'd want the best of us. He'd want us to do well for him.
Samuel Tan lives within our hearts & we will never forget all the great things he has acomplished and how many lives he has impacted.
Rest In Peace, Sam.
We all love you.
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