Sunday, September 3
Realised stress might be the death of me.
It's not just just fermentation of school. Wait, everything IS about studies.
Boring shit.
My point is that nothing will ever be good enough. Not even that new top you bought which looks so shique and yet you think you'd look absolutely gorgeous in it without 5 kg weighing you out. The times when you just seek for self-identity and you're not happy with the end results. To you, nothing's good enough so how could it be t the rest of society.
It comes up t a point when you think compliments are not meant for the feint-hearted. And then you ponder over the truth when you know for a fact that all you're ever gonna get is a pack of BIG FAT lies. But you keep living day after day. & yet, you die inside.
Cause I'm bigger than what my body gives me credit for. Figuratively, my true ambition was t be perfect. Flawless. Just like in the movies. Please people with my numerous talents, my suave moves, my beautiful curves. But that's why it's called "life" and not the play, "I need a life, desperately."
& somehow, its not for anyone else but for you.
And you alone.But don't fret. It's going t be alright.
It always will be. As so God says.
It's a happy, happy place & i love that smile you've tried on. It works for you.
Okay, so the weekend's been rather insipid. Spent my beautiful Saturday afternoon at a lame boat ride I would have killed t get off. Yeah, it was that bad. Isn't it illegal t be dumping stuff into the ocean? Religious or otherwise? Gosh, I still don't get the significance. I really thought we needed a licence or something. Moving on..
After the jerky and almost nausiating journey, Henna and I resulted t a movie at Bugis. The Devil Wears Prada it was. It was so couture-fun-filled. Anne Hathaway looked absolutely stunning. After Nigel's wonderful make-over, of course. And it ended so nicely, almost awe-gapingly.
Oh, did i say SPOILER ALERT?
not that I gave away that much anyways.
But Chris isn't as hot as he was made t seem in the book!
But Nate's really cute. Curly-haired boyfriend. I'd kill for a guy like that.
Okay, I think the movie's gotten into me. Watch It! to see what I mean...
Met Krishin with his cousins at the movies. He looks awesome now, really does. No more chubby fat childhood friend Krish playing pranks all the time. He looks well, really good. Okay, so enough about that.
Just maybe.Henna's dad dropped me back in his new and reformed Merc. There was a screen-like thing which had buttons next to it which you could just dial and speak all the way from the back of the car. And it had CABLE TOO! Do you know how elated I am. I would kill for cable in my car. Gosh, here I go again.
But really, cool shit.
Yeah, so this morning I woke up extremely early cause I had a horrible dream. I'm not exactly obliged t share so I'll just leave it at that. Studied till 12 then watched the encore of Life As We Know It - backtback. Then went over t Andrea's house (yeah! she's back!) t watch the last episode of Rockstar Supernova which she had taped and which I missed.
& I hated every damn bit of it. How in the world did Gorgeous Ryan Star get elminated? I am NOT HAPPY. This is so not right. Storm isn't really up t standards. She should have gone. Or Dilana. Crazy Drama Lady.
So WHATEVER.
Went t Sue's house close t 5 for Chem Session. Didn't do much but what was important was that she was alright. And that she wasn't killing herself over everything that's happened. She deserves much more. Think she's had enough really. Love ya, Sue (:
Rushed home after a screeching voice over the phone. GAWWDD. My mother is just out t make my life a living piece of crap. So, OBVIOUSLY we couldn't get other stuff done which was really a bummer cause I thought I'd finish all my chem by today which would leave me with a gazillion more t harp over.
& not t mention I've been incredibly exhausted lately. It's so hard just t get out of bed. Who knew mugging could be so mind-wrecking. Wait. It always has been. But it really drains you mentally. It's way worse than being overcome with fatigue physically. WAY worse.
Just got t live up t it. Nothing could possible ruin my chances of a good tertiary education. Not even the Wicked Witch of the West. "I'll catch you, my pretty"
Shrills.
I just love your saccharine smile.Wouldn't it be nice if we could get together.
Give me a while t sort things out.
Baby, just be right there waiting.
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down.
din
